BARBIE BEATON received the Honorary Montana Fellowship to Virginia Creative Center for the Arts, 2018. She lives in Missoula, Montana.

*MEMOIR-IN-PROGRESS: People behave badly. Barbie was naive. Growing up as the middle daughter of a logger and a teacher, she trusted her mother’s perspective: things weren’t that bad. But bad things did happen over and over, and when Barbie found herself at the Juvenile Detention office, she dared to think her family conspired the situation that led her there. At forty-two years old, trust collapsed and reality shattered when Barbie learned the loving and attentive mother was an illusion. How do you go from daughter to enemy? What defines you when family deserted you long ago?

*Author’s Note: Stockholm Syndrome or Chronic Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD) are trauma responses from long-term exposure to abuse. Barbie Beaton is not a specialist.

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